Finally, I have to leave this here.
For roughly two months, I have kept a tab open in my Firefox Web browser. It contains one of the saddest Web pages I have ever seen. I do not mean that the code or design or CSS is wonky. I mean that it displays a heartbreaking image from a photo journalism contest. The photo breaks me down into tears every time I glance at it. I haven't been able to close the tab. I shut down Firefox, but when it starts back up the next day, it reloads the tabs. Every time, this image of this boy is there. This broken, six year-old boy who looks so much like my own six year-old boy. And every time I see it, I cannot stop thinking of the cruelty of this life, the fact that we have been robbed of life that never had a chance to flourish.
I need to make peace with the photograph. I need to find some way to resolve my feelings about it. The only thing I can think to do is to link to the photograph, to make this the funeral for everything wrong with the image that I cannot get out of my head. And after I make this post, I will close the tab, and then I will go and kiss my son as he sleeps, and I will thank God that he is still with me.